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| oh i almost forgot to mention, breann was the best homecoming date EVER! and, hillsborough is a bunch of BITCHES! THEY BLOW ASS, AND DONT DESERVE TO GO TO THE PLAYOFFS.....HOW IN THE HELL ARE THEY 8-0?! fags.....well we are 4-4, should be 8-0, but well finish out 6-4 giving kantor his first winning season with gaither. well start lifting nov 15, so i can get all buff again. next season, senior year, starting....pressure...i dont give a shit, im gonna hurt bitches...... well as of right now, i have a newly torn ligament.....in my right ankle, and considering there are 3 ligaments in ur ankle im gonna get the 3rd one sr yr and never be able to play again!!! well, with my luck, its possible...... but w/e, who knows what will happen, maybe ill have a career season next year and go to a d-1 college.....thats a dream....and a scholarship.....ill focus on gettin a scholarship with grades at the moment so i can fall back on something,save my family some money.......ok well my hand is crampin, so ill end this, STAY PIMPIN!  | | |
| ok.....you fags dont leave me any input anymore......so dont BITCH about me not updatin frequently.....yes, so for those who do not already know, i am currently dating........drum roll, please.....Breann .....oh so hott...... im talkin to her now...... i REALLY like her, and i hope she feels the same....Is it possible to love after 10 days of dating? i think it is......but it is definitely possible to "jump the gun" and i have a really bad habit of rushing things.....so i wanna keep this goin slow, as long as i keep her happy, ill be happy. ive been around her like all week....i am always late  so we rarely get more than two or three hours together.....I AM A BUM. i have to learn to deal with it. well, its a school night.....F-THAT....she was SOOO hot tonight, all dressed up like a cat, with her 10-minute halloween costume. cleavage=gooooood........but, i must admit, shes always hot. ok add is kickin in and im losing focus, this isnt as in-depth as i wanted it to be. DAMN. well w/e, i havent updated in a while.this is good enough.
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| once again, we get the refs from HELL! but atleast this time we won. blake=bitches. the score should have been like 42-0.........but they called back all but one of our td's and they got a td off a bad snap on punt. so it was 11-7....made my heart race like an mf, i had a sharp pain on the last 4th down. w/e i lived. we won our homecoming game. well tmrw i go to the hc dance with breann.....it should be pretty kickass, but before that my day is gonna blow, with diff chores and errands i have. it should be worth it. my tux makes me look puffy in the chest and boxy on the shoulders ...but itll be ok as long as i get a tie that is better than the piece of ish the company gave me. but i gotta drive her in my car. its so GHETTO! i gotta clean it and then fix various broken things in it, hah. so thats my day tmrw, get a tie, get a haircut (FRO-TRIM), wash my car, pick up breann, go to justins house, then go to the dance. after that it sounds like AFTER PARTIES!!!!!! well i hope it goes ok........WISH ME LUCK!!!! | | |
| ok, im a dick. its official. im sorry. ive always been a dick and ive never really realized it. but now its out in the open, everyone knows. i honestly feel terrible about what i have done. but i cant change what i have already done. its my decision. i must stick with it. i know that i have yet to feel the repercussions, but they will soon come. i have heard things....things about you....things about me, and they are all true. i have been told that my decision was just, and others tell me that it was a huge mistake. whether i am accepted or rejected is your desicion. who knows what the future holds.....but right now, i felt that we had staled as a relationship....most likely that i wasnt giving you the attention you deserved. i honestly felt i was making mistakes far before you had noticed. you must not have seen the regular me. i am rather lively and sweet. but when talking to you i was bland and boring. i didnt feel i was inputting enough for you. this was all my undoing, and i know it. i wish i knew what i was getting myself into when i met you, i would have never lead you on. i hope we can atleast remain friends...... | | |
| its been a long time since ive updated, sorry. my parents are dicks......they are pissed at me for absolutely nothing. how can you be angry at someone for no reason?! i dont deserve being punished, or ignored. my mothers not talking to me or my sister. im not talking to either of my parents. they are both ruining my life. they have threatened to take my car away, once again. they wouldnt allow me to hang out with a friend, even though i did all my chores. they said it was too late. 9 isnt too late. 11 maybe, but 9 IS NOT. i havent done anything all day except for stupid shit for my parents. and i did what they want, and guess what! they are still not pleased. i cant help that i cant make them happy, and i guess i dont care. but the way they treat me is not to be tolerated. if my mom bitches at me one more time i fear i may do or say something ill regret. my mom keeps making my sister cry, and she wasnt home all day, bcs she was at a friends house. going to a friends house is my mothers way of getting away from us. when she feels she cant fix something, she runs away from it. me and my sister confronted her last night and she attempted the end the conversation and go to bed. we wouldnt let her. some night i had, losing to fuckin sickles and coming home to find that my mom thinks i dont respect her and that she feels that im embarassed by her, which are both untrue. i now truly believe that my mother is a paranoid lunatic. she does this pseudo-mom shit around my friends. so does my dad. i dont like bringing friends over to my house bcs of how they act, not out of embarassment, but how phony they become. my mother has control issues, my father is too distant. my mom doesnt want her relationship between her and her children to end up like hers with her mother. well shes certainly doing a great job at that....only not. i felt that i had the greatest parents in the world until about maybe 3 months ago, or less. and now, to complicate situations, my father is attempting to fit into a new job, because he resigned from his last job of 12 years as a credit manager. he is subbing bcs he wants to become a teacher. i dont think that hell be able to handle students, were assholes. i think my mother is taking all of her stress out on me when she says and thinks that something about me needs to be corrected. i believe that other than me being a lazy fuck-up, there is not much more wrong with me, but she has yet to see that. i think shes the one with somethin wrong. she needs to quit blaming others and think about a situation before making it exponentially worse.
i am sorry for venting on you guys..... im not having a great week. i hope that it gets better soon. i cant wait for homecoming. | | |
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